you know those days when nothing really goes your way?
when the weather is cuddle weather, and all the people it reminds you of are busy. they're not interested. you don't text them, because you know you won't get a reply.
when you think about her and how she could make it better. she could make it okay that nobody cares enough.
when you miss how close you used to be with someone, and you cry because the immensity of it only hits you then. somebody who used to be a big part of you is lost to you, slipped right through your fingers.
when you get lame and soppy and emo and start laughing at the strangeness of it all.